FrIeNdS

friends friends..

hmmm, it starts with adam. i just got to ne high school, and i meet this kid in the lunch room.. the dude happens to be in my spanish class, too.. and he lives a block away from me.


and with that, a new friendship is forged.

man, for my last 2 years in school, adam was my best friend. we did everything together, because we were too cool to have any other friends, despite the fact that we're very different people. man, he even helped me get my first job, which was a gig at ruhling's seafood. we did the dishes, and who knew i'd be 2 years at that place? through all our differences, our friendship was for the best, even after things started separating us.. namely bitches, but you know how that goes. i got sandy, he got his girls, and we started seeing less and less of each other.. but let me tell you, his heart and his generosity makes him a shining example of a human being, and for that he's always in my heart.

and if it weren't for that job he had gotten me, i would've never met..

mr. tom watson.


he was a resident cook at ruhling's, and instilled some wisdom and outlooks on life as i was a still maturing pup [i still am]. spiritually, he's on another level than most people i know. i see him several times a year whenever he or his pals throw a party, they're all DJs. i remember 2 summers ago, i was at his place all the time because they set up speakers on every level and kept it that way because it was convenient. when he was in north philly, and through him, i'm mutual friends with;

drew, his best friend and a guy i feel like i could pick up right where we left off.


i see him maybe a couple times a year, and it's like we just hung out every time. this motherfucker is spinnin away right here..



nigga moves to cali when i move back to philly. why do we keep doing this?

and through them, i can hang out with all of them


all the friends group together, and it's kinda cool. i see them at every party they throw, whethers it in south st, manyunk, wherever, they're tight.

and, you deviate to my closest friend, youri.


he's been around since 05, i'm pretty sure that's when i adopted him. it seems like longer, but i think that's because we've been through so much together.. not stuff between us, but things in our lives. our first major breakups happened, my move to san diego and back, his issues and such.. it seems like it's been years more since we started hanging out, but time is just a measurement, and friendship cannot be defined withing something so narrow.

and new friendships are hard to come by. after i broke up with sandy [the ex], i soon after met a new girl and thought the world of her. i let out so much, and when i discovered it was all a scam and she was just having fun, i promised i wouldn't do it again.

so i have to be cautious of it all, i don't want to be hurt senselessly. so as i sit here, i'm trying to decipher the new relationships i'm involved with, if they're genuine, if they're sincere, if they want to be loved as much as i want to be loved.


but something ticks away and tells me i'm making a mistake, that instead of following my heart, i should follow logic and shield myself from the inevitable pain that's to follow because of how careless i was.

but you know what? i want to give it that chance to flourish and live, because love deserves that much of a chance, right? who doesn't enjoy being loved? it's an intense experience that fills you with something so much more worthwhile than anything i can possibly imagine..

but you have to hate it when things go wrong..


and things will go wrong, it's just the nature of things. but shit happens, and you live, you learn, you forgive.. blah blah blah blah blah, you move on. i remember the good times, and if that's what is shared, then so be it. it's a shame no new experiences will be had, but when the run's at its end, just accept it..