so, when do you say enough is enough? how much do you alter yourself and who you are to cling onto the one whom you love so much? life is a metamorphosis, isn't it? i know i don't show the same side of myself to my parents that i show to my friends.. and i'm sure whatever side you show your signature other isn't the same side you show to your secret lover. come on, what would your bf/gf think of you if you pulled out a buttplug attached to a drill? the lover wouldn't judge, they just want to use it after you're done.
but how far do you drag your name in the mud? how many redundant sacrifices do you make in the name of love? and is it even love after a while? what is it really? think.. LOVE.
you know what love to me is?
it's the feeling of exploration. like when lewis and clark when they set out explore america, i too am going over uncharted territories to discover what's beyond the surface. i'm clearing away the cobwebs of your soul and setting foot onto the mountain that is your being.
love is the intimacy of our touch, with each and every subtle caress sending lightening bolts through our bodies, every nerve sizzling with anticipation and every piece of hair standing on end.
just a couple examples of love..
but love is not, i repeat, is NOT, the taking advantage of one's soul in the sake of your advancement, and visa versa.
love is NOT something you turn on and off, it's there or it's not. i have a dick, if i didn't, well, i wouldn't be getting a genuine prosthesis, would i?
love definitely is not something you intimately share with others. everyone enjoys being fellatciated and cunnlingis.. ated, sure, who doesn't like to let out a nut every now and again.. but does it mean surreptitiously going about and letting yourself go? if the love is there, then you shouldn't have to go around sticking/get stuck behind that person's back.
i'd feel betrayed.. and inadequate. but since i know i'm not the latter, it must be a huge issue with the former. if trust is ever an issue.. then trust might always be an issue. the reason i'm so crazy about this is because i believe loyalty is.. huge, absolutely huge. i had a long distance relationship for a year and a half, and sleeping around was never, ever a problem.
and if you're feeling like you need to get ass outside of your relationship, and think you're in love.. in my book, you're a big, fat, despicable liar.
you're not supposed to show that side to the one you love..
and that's when you're out of love. when everything is on autopilot, and no one is really at the helms. you've stepped into the monotony of a stale relationship that offers, if nothing else, something to hang onto.. but is it worth it? is the uneventful trip that you're leading yourself through really worth the time and the energy? what time you lose, will never be returned. and are you willing to risk it for an investment that may never pay the same returns that it did in the beginning?
maybe i'm asking myself these questions.. because i know i did it.
but hey, everything is a matter of perception, baby. and your love.. who knows. it may involve buttplugs and monotony. but if the buttplugs and monotony aren't doing it anymore, is it worth doing?
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