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i read somewhere that if you mix up the interior letters of a word, you can still read it. we're apparently trained to do so. i would attempt to do it right now, but.. i'd probably lose the essence of what i'm trying to write about right now.

anyway, if you had trouble with that word up there.. it's 'emotion'. i get emotional over everything.. looking at this picture gets me all emotional.


i look at the flower, and it makes me feel all warm inside. it takes me to an older time when i was surrounded by foliage and cool autumn air. i can't help but get a smile from the nostalgia i feel, it's conducive of the image, you know? the feeling of happiness just overflow, because the changing on the seasons almost seems like a changing of the guard in a sense. out with the old, in with the new! and it'll be oh so beautiful when the leaves start to turn.

did you know that foliage is actually better to photograph in overcast, rainy days? it saturates the leaves, giving them more pop. good to know.

then there are images of tragedy and pain.


i wonder what happened to it? i'm pretty sure my cat got to it.. but i was drawn to the idea, not so much the image. i was watching something on ww2 today, and the site of dead bodies everywhere.. that's something to behold. life is so precious to us.. it's just hard to imagine it gone in that instant. one moment, you're alive and ticking, next thing, you're slumped over, done.

and death is one of those tricky things. you never know when it's going to happen, and it's a little disheartening. i have a hard time coping with it and have so many varied opinions on it. depends on when you ask me; most the time, i feel life's too short and unpredictable for us to live it in the opposite manner. plan for the worst, hope for the best y'all! as if. people tell me to stop playing and get on with my life; if i stop playing and start setting up for my life, then i'm playing the cards that i'm gonna make it past a point long enough to reap the benefits.

thing is, i'm really bad at gambling, so i sorta live for the moment, do what i please whenever it pleases me. it's unorthodox in this family and weird considering my upbringing stressed the opposite of what it is i'm doing.. but you know, if i died tomorrow on their path, i wouldn't have done the things i've done, and that's a sad note to leave on.

and those people, what if they thought the same thing?

'shit, i never got to change the lives around me for the better'

'damn, i never asked her out'

'i never made it to europe, africa, the asias..'

i want to limit the 'things to say before i die' to as little as possible.

but you know, sometimes, all you need for peace in your soul is the sight of something beautiful to quiet the rumblings.. stop thinking. just do what feels right, and all will be right with you.