12.07.2006

to james kim

courtesy of cnet.com

for those of you who don't know about the james kim situation, it ended on a sad note today. for those of you who don't know james kim, here's a quick blurb; an audio tech editor at cnet.com, james was known for his honest opinions on the ever changing audio assault on the mp3 market. he reviewed hundreds of products and became a fixture to anyone who went on the site.

after a thanksgiving trip to the northwest, james, his wife kati and 2 children went missing when james and kati missed appointments the following week on tuesday. friends and family, as well as cnet.com posted updates to the situation, and thousands of people who frequent cnet.com chimed in on the cause to find the kim family. they were missing, and to make matters worse, they were missing in the oregon frontier; extremely dense forest, horrendously miserable weather, sharp cliffs, raging waters, and a tech editors worst nightmare; no reception for the cell phones.

in a place where technology failed, the human nature to persevere remained fully intact. after having been lost for a week, james set out on foot saturday at an attempt to finding aid, leaving his family behind at the vehicle, where they'd undoubtedly be safest. kati and the children were discovered on monday, and searches for james continued throughout the week.

i was, and remain, extremely optimistic in my nature. i truly believed that james would, though a bit roughed up, be found alive. the news of his family being found intact only strengthened my belief and i was soon awaiting news for his return. with such an exhaustive amount of force searching for him, it had to be any moment we came across james jumping up and down looking up at a rescue helicopter ready to take him home to his family.

unfortunately, it didn't happen that way. while capturing video in class, i took a moment to update myself on the news about the missing editor, only to see the image that resides above. i couldn't believe my eyes. 'you can't be serious, it can't be.' but it was. the reality of the situation had set in, and it became apparent that hopes and prayers can only do so much in keeping a person on this planet, especially in the wilderness in the winter.

but this man, he transcended the human realm into something more; he became what so many are afraid to become, and that's being fearful. he feared for his family's safety, and barring all advice of staying in one place, he set foot in search of help, because that's what must've been going on inside his head, his heart. and i feel so badly knowing that he died doing what he felt was right, and that knowing the outcome, he would've been ok if he stayed put. but that's in hindsight, no one would have known for sure how this would have unfolded. some cry unnecessary actions, while i holler unbridled love.

my heart aches for your family, james. i wish the outcome of this story would be different, but this world isn't having any of that at the moment. thank you for showing me what mp3 player to get, but mostly, thank you for showing me how a person should act and feel when they're called upon. james, you will be missed.

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