pull back!! move forward!!

am i sad in this picture? i don't know, it was taken over a year ago. i'm at a dilemma, and though i know where i'm at, i have to take a step back and look at what's presented.

i like a girl, far far away. need i say more? in the midst of a connection, i became way too comfortable. i bared too much, much too soon. i've let my defenses down, and for some reason, i feel as if i'm going to pay for it, dearly.

i don't trust people easily, if at all. but here, i opened myself up and made myself comfortable in the dark.

in the dark of a dragon's lair?? or gods' heaven??

that's what i don't know, but i'm starting to question the authenticity in which we're surrounded. i wanted to believe that i was in the company of someone like minded, someone that genuinely felt things in the same manner that i have felt. someone that has a heart.

it's not that i'm pessimistic, i'm just weary, and i threw that belief away, made an exception. and i'm gonna hurt for it..